been a while since my last update, i've been good. i've been pretty isolated the past few days, according to neocities, its been a week since my last update which i dont think is accurate, it feels like much longer than that. its 8:33pm on a wednesday as im writing, not that the day or time matters much to me anymore. i wake up, brush my teeth, wash my face, vape, gulp down an energy drink, work, fuck about on the internet before working out, showering and going to bed. i have nothing to really look forward to in my day to day life, nothing to get out of bed for. i miss my cat, i miss how he used to cuddle up to me and knead on my arm as i laid in bed. i miss his little meows and the softness of his fur, the sound of his purring, the warmth of his body against mine.
i've been looking for a new job recently but ive been getting rejection letter after rejection letter and its starting to annoy me. hundreds of applications and hundreds of follow up messages only to be told "we're going with another applicant". at this point i might just start whoring myself out on onlyfans for the money, posting feet pics would probably net me some good money.
half the time i dont even get a rejection email, i just get ghosted and im starting to think indeed is more just for data harvesting than for actual job applications. they arent even high level jobs, store stock mnager, cashier, receptionist and the likes, the only jobs im really getting interviews for are door to door sales and the pay for those is commision only which i dont really like the idea of. i feel like im living some sort of groundhog day, i could have sworn ive posted something like this before.