the feeling's back. that feeling that there's something wrong with me, this time it's this feeling that i've been lobotomised or something. ive had headaches and forgetting stuff, trouble focusing. not only that but the constant minor anxiety, twitches here and there and shortness of breath is back. i've managed to get a job i think, at domino's as a delivery driver, just got to get the insurance sorted. i'm on the edge of escaping my NEET status and i don't know how to feel about it. on one hand, cool, i get money and i dont have to borrow petrol money from others.
on the other hand, now i've got to hold down a job and i have less free time. still gonna keep my head down and thug it out, as much as i enjoy being a neet, the idea of being a burden to others is not an aspect i enjoy. 2 years of doing nothing but netrunning, jerking off and playing video games was cool but i need to move out of my parents house, im 25 after all... istg if i'm still living with my mum when i turn 30 i'll kill myself. 5 years to fix my situation.